Diary of Kartika

This is hilarious !

2011-07-04T21:20:00.011+07:00

10 amazing pictures taken at the right time and angle !

guess, which one is the real ? ;)

picture taken from : http://optimismsoul.tumblr.com

Sandman #65

2011-01-26T00:21:00.002+07:00

I'm in love with this poet. Neil Gaiman is such a genius one. He made lots of magnificent and poignant creativity of word.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses.
You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you,
Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
So simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends'
Or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
Nothing should be able to do that.
Especially not love.
I hate love

-The character "Rose Walker" in The Sandman #65

the hardest part

2010-08-29T22:08:00.002+07:00

months passed by and here I am updating my blog. very moody and unsure what should I say. So here's my life today

being a XII grader is one of the hardest part in my life. It's different when I was at the same situation which is a IX grade. It's not the end nor the middle of my "battle" it's a beginning, but why I felt so exhausted. I realize this is the moment of alteration. Switching over and being different is painful. But that's a matter of process.

So here's my resolution for this grade : decreasing time of playing around (the hardest part X_X), practicing math and be a diligent student at school and course,

NOT COMPLAINING << biggest problem

all of that efforts are some of my plan to prepare myself achieve my dream, become a student at University of Indonesia. I'll try to do the best. that's my promise :)

philipians 4:13

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength ...

Thank You

2010-03-21T15:02:00.005+07:00

I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend
There are so many of our special times,
I'm going to miss it ...

One More Times

2009-07-30T21:45:00.005+07:00

I prefer not counting how many times I failed my self to update this blog. Like a cruel stepmother I bugged out my one and only blog, and latter I regretted it, and so on I forgot it. haha. Seems like there's nothing special that can be encourage me to write something. I'm too moody, I guess.

welll, now I really heart FASHION!
I gain it from my unproductive holiday routine, browsing online shop. FYI, I just bought a pair of homemade shoes for 281 k and waited for almost 1 month, but when I've got the result, it's kinda disappointing. The quality wasn't worth with the price ! :(
in spite of my accident of buying a cloth from online shop, I didn't really give up to browse online shop. But the difference is I become much more aware and careful. For me, the keys of buying things from online shop is be aware and scrupulous. Make sure it's a trusted seller. :D:D

Being a XI Social is a big challenge for me. Lots of project and paper waited for me (especially KARYA ILMIAH) hopefully I can get trough it and get beyond the target. :))

Heyy! :D

2009-04-18T23:34:00.004+07:00

watch this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpMDoqQdZ50
I've got lots of lessons. This person was so wonderful. My tears almost drop off when I saw this video. It's a true inner beauty ;)

It's been so long since I hadn't write anything on my blog. I just suddenly lost my interest of blogging a while ago. dunno why, but I guess it caused by my moody feeling. :P well, so long, in many circumstance, I assay to check and update my blog & friendster. but it never worked well. And I also guess it caused by my new addict to facebook. XD

I bought new iPod 1 month ago, and I felt a little bit resentful of the battery life. I charged for approximately 2 hours every time the battery get emptied. But it died less 3 days. Than I realized it's quiet extravagant. I asked some of my friends, especially who had an iPod, but they gave me a different answers, and it goes to confused me. some said the battery could life for more than 1 weeks, another one said it's bout 3 - 4 days, and someone said she didn't really care. hha. X)

Have you ever dreamed to customize your web browser? now you can. Firefox provide it now. I use Firefox as my default web browser, since IE always got troubleshoot and hang when I used it. My brother found this application and he download it. It's really easy to install and easy to change "skins" for ur firefox web browser. Not only that, just by free sign up u can make ur own web browser skin. Just follow this link
Try this, it's very pleasant! ;D

this is my web browser skin now. Full of colour ...

I found a nice poetry bout girls friendship :)

You wandered into my life,
And walked straight into my heart.
A single smile was all that was needed,
For our amazing friendship to start.

You gave me new hope,
When I though that all was lost.
You always held my hand,
During all the roads we’ve crossed.

You’re my protector, my blood sister,
The one who reads my mind.
Who laughs at my lame jokes,
And helps me escape the daily grind.

So confident and loving,
A free spirit so pure.
Who shares my love of music,
Her one and only Cure.

I hope you’ll always remember,
That you’ll forever have a friend in me.
And I know if I asked the same of you,
You would always agree.

It’s hard to imagine my life,
If it was without you,
We’ve always stuck together,
No matter what stupid shit we do.

I fear now that your leaving,
A fear I’m not willing to face.
Coz I know that if you left,
My world would be a duller place.

I know life can confuse you sometimes,
But I now you’ll figure it all out in the end.
Because that’s how amazing you are,
And I’m so proud to have you as a friend.

To my gorgeous friend who has always been there

~luv u my friends ... ;)

beauty means ..

2009-01-24T21:40:00.002+07:00

PS: this posting’s just estimation, no aim to judge or offend any parts of people or institution. Please read it in positive and objective way. :)

I wanted to make up my mind. To recognized about the real beauty mean, seeing as today this topic is so abstract and people can’t avoid the fact that contradiction still come around it. When I asked “means of beauty” to several people, I often heard, mostly the answer was “beauty means attractive from inner and outer side”. Well, I concur it statement. A nice outlook without fine personality, what’s that supposed to mean? We actually can find it sharpness in most of beauty pageant contest. They persuade all the audience and people, to believe, they didn’t search only a good-looking woman, but also fine knowledge, skill, and behavior. There’s nothing wrong inside its reason. The winner put a duty of social and environment trade. And lastly she helped unlucky people around. How splendid! Isn’t it?

I searched its word in wiki, and found some fact and backgrounds of “beauty” word. The characterization of a person as “beautiful”, whether on an individual basis or by community consensus, is often based on some combination of inner beauty, which includes psychological factors such as personality, intelligence, grace, charm and elegance, and outer beauty, which includes physical factors, such as health, youthfulness, symmetry, averageness, and complexion. Beauty philosophy changed as the time passes by, hundred years ago beautiful woman characterized by a plum, short body, and latter in this century a skinny, tall woman acknowledge as a symbol of

Researchers have found that good looking students get higher grades from their teachers than students with an ordinary appearance. Furthermore, attractive patients receive more personalized care from their doctors. Studies have even shown that handsome criminals receive lighter sentences than less attractive convicts. How much money a person earns may also be influenced by physical beauty. One study found that people low in physical attractiveness earn 5 to 10 percent less than ordinary looking people, who in turn earn 3 to 8 percent less than those who are considered good looking. Discrimination against others based on their appearance is known as lookism.

We actually could find it tragedy on Beijing Olympic 20008, when An angel face 9 years old Chinese girl Lin Miao-Ke was chosen to performing a Chinese patriotic (ode to Motherland) song at the Beijing Olympic games nest stadium during the grand opening ceremony on August 8th evening. Not only her pretty face but also her innocence singing touched the nest stadium audience and millions people in front of their TV set. The truth was revealed by media, there was another less pretty 7 years old girl Yang Pei-Yi sang for Lin in the background. Yang was singing champion in competition among hundreds of girls. The committee consider Yang wasn’t enough pretty, The final decision was made by communist authority and pull Yang out of that shiny stage and put Lin on that show instead. Lin only pretended to sing that song by mouth matching the lyrics at the precise rhythm. Yang could only sing that song secretly. The party director Zhang explained that arrangement was for representing the perfect image of China yet it's not a big deal. Shame on their cheating behavior which indeed fooled a lot of people and certainly insulted the China government consequent

(left) Lin Miaoke (right) YangPeiYi

CNN reports :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HnScoiLb9To

The Real singer, Yang Pei Yi sing Ode to motherland in front of Chinese student:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tewc37AnYEY

Another fact in Korea, 76% woman at 20 – 30 ages decided to take a plastic surgery.
25% mothers persuaded her children at 12 – 16 ages to had a plastic surgery,
27,4% and 95% Korean have a fake double eyelids.

This just one of a lot pitiful worldwide incident that seems pretending, that in fact, world still deduce luckiness and successful could reached easily from a good looking person. Human may able to chop off someone life from his / her first impression. When somebody has a nice appearance somehow people could easily take a good respect to his/ her. Well in fact, this kind of behavior actually didn’t always valid to all people. I suggest this point of view only occur on a narrow-minded person. I certainly believe GOD created every person as a unique, precious, and perfect creature in HIS eyes. ;)

“It's too bad that people feel others find them unattractive. All people are beautiful if you know how to look at them. If you notice the beauty of naturalness which is given by God, even the people who are called ugly are beautiful”

Kim Ah Jong

2009-01-04T02:37:00.003+07:00

I'm quite be fond of her, since her role as Hanna in 200 Pounds Beauty. Her beauty and voice such an amazing. But I recently got it truth, she went under the knife just as her character, Kim Hanna. sigh.

nightmarebefore, happinessafter

2008-12-18T00:17:00.004+07:00

I felt enough and nearly sick, after had a very drainy day. No TV, No Net, No any gratify things around me. so weary, glum, fed up, and so on ..
but noww ...

At last Christmas holiday is coming! 1000 reinders clap its chimes while Santa slides the cart. hohoho.

I'll focus to writting blog beside having fun with the holiday ..
MERRY CHRISTMAS all ..
py holidayyy ..

Blog d'friends

2008-12-12T22:21:00.003+07:00

3 of my friend in the class was made a blog.
so happy

keep on going blogging ..
words is way more precious
to express anything
I believe it

I'll move on

2008-11-28T00:03:00.003+07:00

I love this song so muchh. Since 2 weeks ago, I always sing it. Even at school I also sing along this song. In my head. haha. The singer, Olivia Ong have such a sweet and charming voice. 2 thumbs up for her! :)

I'll Move On - Olivia Ong

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at a time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.

Twilight

2008-10-29T14:36:00.004+07:00

In really wanna read "Twilight Series". hahaha. I know a lot of ppl write bout thiz book in their blog and a lot of review comes from many popular journal. I already read it synopsis but surely I still conscious bout thiz book. It contain of 4 series, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, and Midnight Sun. The original cover look so simple and looked not really attractive. When I saw it 4 the first time, I suggest it would be hard to understand. One of my friends said the story is very impressing. I should check to the bookstore and buy it. :)

some review by Patty Campbell :
As Shakespeare knew, love burns high when thwarted by obstacles. In Twilight, an exquisite fantasy by Stephenie Meyer, readers discover a pair of lovers who are supremely star-crossed. Bella adores beautiful Edward, and he returns her love. But Edward is having a hard time controlling the blood lust she arouses in him, because--he's a vampire. At any moment, the intensity of their passion could drive him to kill her, and he agonizes over the danger. But, Bella would rather be dead than part from Edward, so she risks her life to stay near him, and the novel burns with the erotic tension of their dangerous and necessarily chaste relationship. Meyer has achieved quite a feat by making this scenario completely human and believable. She begins with a familiar YA premise (the new kid in school), and lulls us into thinking this will be just another realistic young adult novel. Bella has come to the small town of Forks on the gloomy Olympic Peninsula to be with her father. At school, she wonders about a group of five remarkably beautiful teens, who sit together in the cafeteria but never eat. As she grows to know, and then love, Edward, she learns their secret. They are all rescued vampires, part of a family headed by saintly Carlisle, who has inspired them to renounce human prey. For Edward's sake they welcome Bella, but when a roving group of tracker vampires fixates on her, the family is drawn into a desperate pursuit to protect the fragile human in their midst. The precision and delicacy of Meyer's writing lifts this wonderful novel beyond the limitations of the horror genre to a place among the best of YA fiction. (Ages 12 and up)

Twilight also adapt to movie. It will be play in theater 1n 21 November. Dunno when it will premiere in Indonesia. :(

the movie poster :

Soundtrack tracklisting :

Muse — Supermassive Black Hole
Paramore — Decode
The Black Ghosts — Full Moon
Linkin Park — Leave Out All The Rest
MuteMath — Spotlight (Twilight Mix)
Perry Farrell — Go All The Way (Into The Twilight)
Collective Soul — Tremble For My Beloved
Paramore — I Caught Myself
Blue Foundation — Eyes On Fire
Rob Pattinson — Never Think
Iron & Wine — Flightless Bird, American Mouth
Carter Burwell — Bella's Lullaby

Past 1 Month ..

2008-09-26T13:28:00.004+07:00

Last couple week ago, I was terrible tired of more than a few test & homework. Seemed like no time to breath in. Very hard work for last week. Beside, yet, I still keep on writing my new blog. so happy to find it times to write it. 2 weeks latter I'll have a mid test. Hope I can prepare it goodly.

At the 8th day of September 08, my parents celebrate their wedding anniversary. It turned to the meaningful number of people's age. A sign of maturity. It was 17. They just bought a of fruity cake. And we had a family's close time. Me and my brother share impression and message to both of our parents. This means a lot to us. I pray to GOD, just for 1 simple reason, to take care my dad, mom, and brother.

This is the cake ...

Beside, I also well happy to received some of my social's test subject like geography, sociology, and citizenship. I've got a great score, even it wasn't too perfect, I'm quite satisfied. My psychology test was already given back. Before I read the result I could predict what it orange paper would tell about me. And my prediction was almost right. They suggest me to be present at social class. And I felt happy, the result came to the same way of my plan. So, I didn't have to wear oneself out for choosing a suitable class, because that's all based on my interest and talent.

Islamic celebration (lebaran) will come next week, and I haven't got any plan for the holiday. I don't yet know what will I do, maybe read some school subject's handbook to prepare the mid test yeah, It is coming up after the Islamic celebration holiday, and honestly I fell a little bit resentful. I won't enjoy my holiday peacefully. But what can I do? just study as well as I can.

And last, have a good time for all of you guys. Happy holidaee ..
: )

New Beginning!

2008-09-07T23:28:00.001+07:00

I start to make my own blog today!. whoo. I dreamed about it since a long day. Why I choose 'sparklestella' as the blog name? well, after a long time of dramatics consideration (huff), I found sparkle & estela (latin names means star) as my representative word. To stand out as a good people is 1st my wish. I planned to write all the things happen in my life also some analyze & opinion bout an interesting subject (4 me). Also I will write this blog (mostly) in English, even my English still awful. However, practicing is the best way to improve it. And makes a blog really helps me to improve it! See you!